There was a day a while back that I just got fed up basically with myself and one of the things that was neglected was my blog. I even went as far as pulling off the pictures I had at the side. Do you ever just get creeped out by the thought of being so public with your health journey? I don't know if that was it or I was just fed up with not being able to stick to a healthy lifestyle.
So, I told myself I wouldn't do a post until I get back on track for a certain amount of time. Obviously that hasn't worked out for me. When I was blogging regularly I really felt much more motivated and accountable. Did I ever think I would become one of the statistics for gaining back my weight? Are you kidding me, I was much smarter than that (said with tongue in cheek). I have not gained back all the weight (thank goodness), but I am about 40 lbs heavier than my lowest in May of 2012. It doesn't take much. At first you think a little extra won't hurt and the next day I will get back to "normal" eating. The first 5 or 10 lbs up, I tried to justify it by telling people, "oh, I'm just going up and down 5 to 10 lbs". At the point I am now, I cannot hide it and I feel so horrible and blah. But, it is what it is and now is the time to stop and move forwards (again). I am still in my early 50's and I know it will only get harder to watch my weight as I get older. 50 years is a long time to worry about your weight. I just have to focus on feeling healthier and get back to good eating habits.
I have been following many of your blogs and am so happy for my bloggy friends who have been successful. You can't believe how inspiring you all are. Well, now its my time to get back to it, and not just for a week. I am definitely not happy with the picture below but I needed some kind of starting point again.