Tuesday, 29 July 2014

Weekly Weigh In and Taking the Scenic Route

I really didn't want to post this but I did commit to continue blogging.  Maybe not as much as I was hoping but I do want to keep at it.  I was up 1.1 lbs this week at my Saturday WW weekly weigh in.  I am so fed up with taking the "scenic route" with weight loss.

What happened?  I was playing my old game of being really "good" for the day or two before weigh in.  After the WW meeting I am really motivated and manage to stay on track for a couple of days.  I then get a day when I need  crave something.  You know the game, "one day won't hurt".  I'll be really, really good after.  No, no, no.  This definitely does not work and has to STOP!!!.  I am only fooling myself.

On Saturday night, hubby and I decided to go to downtown Toronto.  We ended up at Honest Ed's.   It is a large bargain store  that has been around for over 60 years.  My mother and grandmother used to bring me there when I was a child.  One of their slogans is "Come In and Get Lost" and I did!.  Hubby had never been there, so we decided to go see it before it closes in a couple of years.

Afterwards we went to a Hungarian restaurant down the street and had their wooden plate special.  I don't think there was one healthy option on that plate, but that didn't stop me from having it.  I received a comment from Sean one day.  He said " I resisted for as long as I could because I desperately wanted to be one of those people who could "just be okay and normal." I'm not "normal," and that's okay, I'm "unique" with special needs and attention when it comes to food and exercise. And I'm worth the effort required to live my best life. And you are too."  

I couldn't get this out of my mind after I ate this meal.  Was I trying to be a "normal" person going out for dinner?   I have been successful before and I just have to do it again.  Yes, I am worth it and so are all of you!

Tuesday, 22 July 2014

Weekly Weigh In and Update

I really meant to post a couple of days ago, but you know how life goes and gets in the way!

I had my weekly WW weigh in on Saturday.  Good news and bad news.  Good news is I lost 1.7 lbs.  Bad news, I lost 1.7 lbs.  I know I only started being more careful with my food midweek but I really felt like it would be just a little more.  That being said, I am happy that the scale is going in the right direction.  I have a long road ahead of me, but I am slowly starting to realize this is not an overnight fix.

Getting prepared is one of the main things I need to do to help me with my weight loss.  One of the first things I did was go shopping for some fresh produce.

I was doing well with cutting out sugar until Sunday.  We ended up going to Dairy Queen and I had a small dipped cone.  However, I have been binge free which really makes me happy.  I also started walking again.  My toe is feeling much better.  Today I plan on swimming some laps.  I am really starting to feel like I am getting to a better place and I know from past experience, I will be able to be more successful with my diet then.

Anyhoo, I will try to post more frequently.

Wednesday, 16 July 2014

The Story So Far...

How many times have I started this post feeling like a failure, an idiot, embarrassed, frustrated.  Well, I think  you get the picture.  Someone then pointed out to me that I am not the only one with these struggles and many, many more are facing the same dilemma.  

Just to recap, I initially started this blog when I had already lost about 75 lbs. That was in December 2011.  I did get to within a couple pounds of my goal in May 2012.  I could just feel it, I was so close.  I slowly started my regain.  Now I am down 30 lbs from my original highest weight.  Argghh, that pretty much seems to sum up how I feel.

There is definitely no end to this journey.  I will keep at it and I must keep my eye on the prize.  This big prize is my health.

I will be back to tracking, drinking water and walking.   A few weeks ago I tripped in the garage and hurt my toe.  Just now I am starting to feel more comfortable walking on it.  So I will be getting out tonight.  I truly loved the routine I was in a couple of years ago with the walking and running.  I will get there again.

As for the food, I will be staying away from processed food, bread and sugar.  I know that getting these out of my system will make me enjoy the "clean" foods once again.  Its amazing how fast your body adjusts to the "junk" that you put in it.  I know its not good for me, but I continued anyways.

My main goal is to get my mind into the right place.  I know once that happens, the rest will fall into place.  I know from reading other blogs, that many of you can relate to the regain and the agony that goes along with it.  Even though I have not been posting, I have tried to keep up with many of your blogs.  I have just been embarrassed to leave comments.  You are all very motivational to me!